Unaware

I’m alone in this ocean
with no one to see where I’ve gone
Going through the motions,
On my own, from dusk to dawn

Every day is rain, I feel like i’m crashin’
Every night is fog, the cycle keeps passin’
my mind is so gone, I’m well under the weather
Not someone who’s got their shit together,
with their own mind calling the shots
i’m chilling down here, my brain sitting in rot

I can’t even take an action
cause my head already got a reaction
two steps in the wrong direction
witnessing a public display of affection
studying it intently, watching her touch with grace
wanting it to be me beneath, feeling every little trace

I think I hide it and I don’t show it, but like i said prior,
I wear my heart on my sleeve, I’m open with my desire.

Inherently, it presents apparently
To everyone I see, To everyone I meet
how i want all the cuties that I see on the street
but is that really how i see them? just a piece of meat?
or do I see it as a symbol of a future that could be?
of comfort and structure and where i can be me
and meditate in a two person sanctuary
spend time with another and finally feel safety
or is that all just another far fetched theory?